By: Taylor Coleman
I was ashamed of my mental illness for a long time. I used to think that clinical depression could be cured with knowledge: keeping my nose in the books and distracting myself with random research. Recently, I have come to the understanding that depression was hindering my work.
My depression manifests when I feel myself losing control; the medical term for it is obsessive compulsive disorder.
Now that I am taking medicine and in constant communication with my doctors about my treatment plan, my poems reflect that true love that I feel about myself.
Live happier; love more. #asktaylorluise
Elevator 12:04 pm – arrived; ready for our call time. 12:45 pm – stuffing programs for the uptown hall featuring a Colombian speaker guest who graduated from Queens College and an activist for the LGBTQ community. 1:05 pm – came and no meeting; after stuffing programs. I finally decided to use the bathroom. That was the appropriate time for our meeting? I don’t need to smile; Pretend; Hide my tears. Your unprofessionalism Triggered my Anxiety. #asktaylorluise
Pollination Pop Sound of popcorn. Pop Works of the stressed. Pop The lid of fresh honey. Pollination Creates beautiful Golden Taste Winnie-The-Pooh filling Meals. My pollination Creates meals for artists Creates dark marks Across my face My chest My back And other places where I hold The most stress Before I complete A beautiful creation Such as poetry A monologue Dialogues Love. #asktaylorluise
Inspiring Gods The limitless of your beauties Are characteristics of me. Everyday I give thanks that I have another chance to show the world the true me. Ambiguous; gracious; intellectual; Admirable. When I think of me I don’t think of: sugar, spice, and everything nice. I think Zelda Fitzgerald: one who inspires men Beyoncé: one who inspires the world Rihanna: one who inspires ones true self; millennials; my generation, My people, Our people. The power within grows more and more whenever I encounter these Gods who give me the power everyday To be me. #asktaylorluise
I am a child of God, and I am proud to be Taylor-Luise Rimmo Coleman.
Be sure to visit her hashtag as well as her Instagram for more of her poetry as she too strikes out her stigma.